I DROP TEARS AFTER SO LONG...
thanks E36J , thanks kaiying , thanks chailuan , thanks sam , thanks don. thanks everybody.
I wont cry le wont le.
No mood for anything even eating. good job eder..

I spend loads of time to do this in class for my dearest QAD. QAD remember i love you leh. :):):):):):) more things coming up for QAD.



Yesterday my first partial day for sem 2. Had loads of fun during my first partial. Starmy && QAD were there with me when we partial for our monday lesson. Catch My Sister Keepers With both of them. Super nice show. Cried like hell. but story line was awesome. I like it. Watching it again soon. :):):) QAD & starmy thanks for the wonderful day.



Yuanlai's birthday. We rushed to do yuanlai's present on last sat && we rushed down to celebrate with her. She was touched right ? yeahh :):):) HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YUANLAI.. I love you....




CHINGCHING , playing pool.

Today wonderful day. Although was quite sad at first when QAD told me she going to meet joel. Cause i dont know where to go. thought i will be at home doing nothing le. Luckily dearest rachel ching ask me out , yeahh. So went out with aga and chingching. Went to yishun meet vivian. && went over safra for pool. I was there entertainment and there supporter during the pool game. Dint want to play , sorry ching. After which back to northpoint for our dinner. Yummy , & finally back home. They really bring me loads of laughter lar. I laugh like crazy ! yeahhhh.. I love E36J..:):):)

thanks TAN CHAILUAN for the charger for the whole day cause i forget to charge> :) thanks lar ..

Netball :

After Pol-ite i really thinking hard on whether to stop IVP or to play. However , although i may not know whether i willl be in the team anot , I realise alot have chosen not to play. The main reason why i will chose to help rp to play is partly because I think i still have the passion for netball. But now where has the passion gone. ARGH :(:(:(:(...

Can anyone tell me whether i should play or stop ? knee injuries , finger injuries , wrist injuries & i think back injuries soon. I think i'm getting all sorts of injuries.

Friends :

Save the best for the last.

So lets start with new friends TAN CHAILUAN !

She's damn cool ok ? yest i just told her why i categorise her as my good friend when she kept on insisting that we only know for 3 weeks. This is because whenever i'm sad , i'm late home. She's there to care. Thanks TAN CL. what a friend man ! You always cheer me up. && nevertheless you always offer to fetch us. I really appreciate you. I also told her that always i see you or talk to you , you will definitely manage to put a smile up on my face. Same goes to the next 2 i want to say.

Second will be SAMANTHA GOH ( Pingpongxzcdzc )

She always there for me when i'm down. Even for selection , for personal stuffs , for friendship for r/s. She will always acc me when she know i'm alone. She make sandwiches for us , she bought chocs for me when i'm down. I wanna keep you by my side always. But she's graduating soon...

Lastly will be JOCELYN NG ( QAD / TOTONG )

Hers gonna be long. Cause we had a long journey before we became sucha lovely && good friend. She's always there for me. Hear me complain. Take care of my knees and all sorts of things. She surprise me one time and another. I'm super happy. She rushed down watch my game. Came my house. Do loads of present for me as well. how can i not appreciate her man ! Everytime i hang out with her , time goes very fast. && also very fun. full of laughter. TOTONG / QAD i really love you lar ! miss you as well.... You are the best ok ? more outing with you please.

seriously i'm getting bored of cathay. I just dont feel like working. Hoping to get money without working please. && i want to find a better job that make me feel like lasting in that job..

Short update on Pol-ite
Finally ended , Congrats to all school that won. && yeah , Rp lost their last game to Sp , therefore they lost their 3rd position away. Sadly to say , everyone did their best. Its just luck. We are going to strive hard for IVP. i must traintraintrain

Knee gave me a nightmare yesterday. Never ever cried so badly in life. But ya , hopefully it gets better

Nothing much to update. School is killing me. Therefore i'm dying not able to update blog or not in the mood to update my blog. :(

Match later on at kallang. bye peeps
Ilovetotong..

*thanks albert for surprising me last night

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAISARAH ! :):):)
so ya , today is my new classmates birthday , first celebration in my new sem class.
So E36J celebrated and had their first lunch together. Walk around like mad to get a cake , but sadly there's none left. so we ended up bought 9 brownies With Ice cream on top of it. It look damn cool can , creativity.
Even brandon , aga , ervin all followed us. So you should know how fun it is. Even the faci join us and chip in money. Great faci. But still bored ! && everyone neglected our ppt & went back class at 1pm. Horrible right ? so ya , all screwed up our ppt , but every team help each other to cover up && tada , we survived through.

I came to realise that my class is supersuper fun , i'm fortunate to be in that class.
So ya , anyway today was another moody day. Super moody. The first time i talk to sam outside 7eleven i nearly cry. && its nearly. :(:(:(. Tears rolling.
Second time i talk to her , i want to cry but i dint cause classmates sure will care and ask me why. I dont want to affect their celebration mood.
Alrights , things will get better. Like vivian say , sometimes friendships need to have quarrel in order to get better. Thanks everybody

I will be strong.

I realise everyone's using the word cute to describe me. thanks ah ! :)

Like what we knew , yes we lose to Tp like everybody expected. But i thought we put in quite a good fight in the first quart.
After which we make all sorts of silly mistakes.
Mistakes from me is having no confidence to shoot and all sorts of stuffs. I'm wondering how i can really be more confidence to shoot. I realise that with all the encouragements from friends i'm still unable to shoot well. I'm afraid that my miss shots will result them in losing the game. Especially during crucial games.
Eder , bend , flip && follow through. Monday is your last chance to prove. Everytime i say i will have confidence but i always dont have the confidence. Really very funny leh. ARGH ! :(:( i super sad leh..

Today dint see Jocelyn.N , miss her alot lar. I want to fight hard with her on court.
TOTONG , lets conquer the court together ok ok?
i will try my best to perform the best on monday. No pressure. But i seriously dont know how to shoot well leh. I'm a bad shooter.
I'm wondering why always before the game i'm able to shoot , during the game i'm not able to shoot.

Pictures speak a thousand words. I'm not going to update much about netball now.
Just to summarise , won np and ite for pol-ite , today will be against tp , all the injuries facing up. I need a rest soon. PWC wasn't fruitful as well. ANDAND , we must really start training le.
Tp will be a strong game , but we will put in our best. Give us some encouragement. I believe rp will be putting up their best today. Love rp netballers.

&& of course pictures is up cause past few days some unhappy things happen. I'm sorry totong. Love you so much lar
Yes , goona last gonna last.
no more quarrels. More surprises for my deares totong will be coming soon.

YESTERDAY a close match , exciting match.

We nearly lose to np , all my fault. sorry teammates !

But we manage to catch up and pull our scores closer.

Thanks god ! i'm sorry once again

First time all wear skirt. everyone excited. and tada pictures up.

i not in a real mood to blog seriously. so just bare with me

I just wanna say , things gonna repeat itself. i gonna lose her. really lose.

I dont know why this feeling came in. I'm sorry. I will try my best to keep it. really try my best.

Things is changing just too fast. i'm super uncomfortable.

too many things going on my mind. i doubt i can play in the main 7 tomorrow. cause i'm not concentrating at all.

EDER , the team needs your confidence , needs your shots. why they have confidence in you but you dont have in yourself ! EDER WAKE UP.

at least you did cherish her now , she have to make her choice also eder eder eder ! wake up lar !

TODAY POST IS FOR REPUBLIC NETBALLERS :):):):)

Tomorrow is finally the day , the day when we netballers gonna put in our best , fight hard for the position we want , fight hard to achieve the team goals that we set. We shall not let effort down the drain ya !

We must make sure all efforts came into use , The time we spend in KL for training , the water training , The every mornign training in the carpark. The tired strategy talk in faz room.

We must remember all the suicides we do. Keep our stamina there. We must show other polys how rp excel and differ from them. We work & communicate as a team. Win or lose doesn't matter , what matter is did we apply what we learn. Its about the experience that we gain , we shall not blame others for anything.

Now let me dedicate some wishes and encouragement to my dearest teammates !

meimei : You are our captain , thanks for always being there to help out with us. Bare with our nonsense. Remember as long as you concentrate on the game. Watch the game properly you will be able to defend away quite a number of balls. You are not a bad defender , all you need is focus and concentration. I believe you gonna shine this year !

Keke : our vice captain. Thanks for always joking around with us , i know you've been quite stress cause of coach naggings ! but i think you are able to do it. Nothing gonna bring you down. Including coach nagging and negative comments. Just stick close to your players and put in your best

Kimo : Lose one ball , get scolded , all this nevermind de lar. Just keep reminding yourself that if you lose one ball you must take it back yourself. Dont hang at the transverse line after the centre pass , quickly move back and block the GS ! Coach scold you , dont attitude , remember , being angry on court will just result in you messing up all your passes and runs ! you can do it de !

Huimin : AUNTY ah ! dont worry , you just need a faster reaction , better reaction will enable you to intercept quite a number of balls. You can do it de , you've got the height !

Rebeca : Remember to take one more step before you actually intercept or approach any ball. Dont leap towards the ball. Dont be lazy ,one more step will allow you to have full control of the ball. stay alert and i believe you will be there !

Vivien : Faster recover from your cough all. Gain back your stamina , dont walk on court. Push yourself just for the team. I believe you will be able to survive for 15mins ! i know you can do it de.

Seri : Dont be stress , you can intercept quite a number of balls. You've got the elevation , you've got the reading of games mind ! i know you can do it , i've trust in you. You also must have confidence in yourself. No stress no stress and you can succeed !

Sam : You ah , dont lazy on courrt. i know you know what you should do on court. I know you can do it de. Be more confidence , strong hands ! strong drives . Just stay strong and you can do it.

Huiping : remember no 2 hand passes ! be more stable before you pass , strong hands and also alert. Dont miss any second passes from joce. dont panic , watch , hold and pass.

Ranjini : RAN , dont be demoralised if you dont get to play in the first 2 quarts ! i believe he put you in the last 2 quarts cause he think that he will need you at the back to pull the score or to kep the score there. He have his reasons. Seriously not to deny i love your drives i like your passes. Remember not to get panic or nervous. You are short but i know you are smart enough to read the game.

Sonia : Hey there , dont worry so much about your stamina lar. You can do it de , dont keep thinking about it , i believe you can survive de. You have good feeding just that keep on training up fitness and yeah , you are good ! I love you lar. You have both good shooting and feeding !

Jocelyn.N : You ah , i believe you will be on form when you are on fire. So you must keep that fire burning. I know when you really want to win your shots will definitely be there so keep that fighting spirit on. You are the one who make me feel more secure when playing with you.

Please keep yourself injured free , i need you to perform on court. With the coordination of you , i have much better runs. Without you , i think i will be lost on court. Yes , we want to win , but of course we dont want to lose you as well. We need you as our shooter. remember , cant take it pull out to rest first. Stay strong , dont let other people hit you le. KNow your limit. overshot , STOP !

Lihui : Must be more risky. Must be able to feed. dont hesitate. Dont worry about your opponents. Just go just give. Just do what you think is right ok ?

LASTLY me : i got the most mistakes but i correct on others. I'm short. I run slowly , i cant shoot. I dont know why. I cant catch strong passes. my drives aren't strong at all. I hesitate my run. I dont know how to fake. I dont know anything at all i think. But i still will keep myself thinking positively , i know the whole team need my shots in order to keep our position. I must shoot in , i must and i must. I always panic when i get the ball , the ball is either floaty or never reach. I think i pull down joce and others. They put in so much effort bringing down the ball and i throw it away. :(:( , when will my shots ever make it man ! i'm really worried about tomorrow. If they need my shots in order to win , i tell you i rather dont play.

Pleease , god help me , i seriously need my shots but i dont know how i should do it , how i can achieve it , how howhow ? I'm seriously useless. I think i dont deserve this main 7 position. && i never imagine myself being in the main 7 at all.

*since coach give me a chance , i wanted so hard to perform but i cant ,i know i cant.

JIAYOU , team republic ! all the besst to you all. ANDAND i love you !

the others dont be demoralised ! there's still IVP ! jiayou ok ?>

I got in for selection. Thanks everyone for the encouragement
Thanks Jocelyn for always giving me confidence lar. i love it..
Thanks sam for accompanying me to improve my shots.
AIYA , too many people to thanks. So to summarise thanks all netballers. thanks friends thanks all classmates
&& lastly thanks COACH JO , i have the best coach ever seriously...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATALYN... celebrate with her andand also we have fun lar. Pictures coming up soon..

today was a pissed off day. Now getting close with sam, sam friends and loads of other people.
I super happy can ? Today saw Chai luan at sam block downstairs den i shouteddd super loud den she laugh ! hahahah ! happy to see her. talk to her outside sam class a while
DENDEN Joel came.. talk with everybody && have fun..
aiya ,i dont know to blog what lar.....

Anyway , that attitude blackie please fark off..
YOU THINK YOUR ATTITUDE VERY GOOD AH ?
YOU THINK YOU CUTE AH ?
YOU THINK YOU ARE BOSS AH ?
STOP BOSSING AROUND ! YOU ARE LOSING PEOPLE EXCEPT FOR ONE !
please know your limits ! blackieee sucks !

Have not been updating blog due to having to wake up early for school in the morning.
Second day of school , and im still not getting use to it , Not getting use to the tiredness of waking up early.
Hais :(:( badbadbad experience. I totally feel so tired in school. totally no mood of studying.
Finally tomorrow its wed . Weekdays gonna be over soon. Yeah ! i cant wait for it. All my classmates are good people , like vivian , and all the others. HAHAHHAHAHAHA
Thanks classmates , but of course i love w45A still. Have been having lunch with pingpong and netballers. Even after school i also meet up with pingpong at her class. I like it..

I also make new friend with Pingpong friend , like cai luan && joel. HAHAHAH , Both of them is the best. Let me tell you more about them.

Like cai luan , she's damn funny , she's our MIMI YAN gang de. Cause her eyes also small small de , and she can clique with us. Best of all is that she fetch us to woodlands interchange today. She's a good friend. I will want to know her more sooner or later.
Like Joel , He's a lame guy i guess , Quite soft spoken. during break cant hear what he say at all de. Super boring de. HAHAHHAHAHAHAH , but as long as that person can take it can le. hahahahah

So today had game at nyp , den Pingpong and Jocelyn.N send me there and also supported me. Poor both of them being accuse as spies. I'm sorry !
Ohya , again i fell down at NYP court , stupid NYP . I dont like at all. Previously was my knee swollen andand now was being step on my left wrist.
(imagine i shooting airball udner the pole )
Tomorrow selection hopefully its better , I cant even take a cup andand alsoalso super strengthless on my left wrist. I hope one day of rest i will be better cause i want to be able to shoot and to prove everybody wrong..

So i have to put in my shots , give myself no stress. I should not be pressurize at all. Once nervous i will push the ball and i'm dead... HAHAHHAHAHAHA !
So ya , lets forget everything and just put in our best. I love it.. Pingpong lets work hard together and beat the rest down. 14 position , sure 2 will be belong to us!
GOODLUCK everybody !

Another Training Day
Super strategic oneoneoneoneone ! really dying soon. Too many things to remember !:):):):)
Finally i met up with dearest Jocelyn.N today. I super happy , happy till i dont know how to xpress it.

So ya i went to school early all cause of her leh ! see how good as a friend i'm. So ya training was quite tiring.
Especially when come to jumping jacks. I just cant do well in that , cause i never learn it before. And i have bad coordinations.
andand oh ya , i think my shooting percentage is really bad , very bad. Even tony say about my shots.
We did 5 men defence again , and new defence now the defending side. So there's alot of strategies to remember. Its damn tiring.
I cant feel my knee now , its damn pain after being hit by the ball && another blueblack before one is recover. bad bad bad ! not gonna make it soon

Next week will be eliminating 2 more players. I just hope i'm not in the 4 please.
Shots need to be there before i can think of getting in polite ! and i told myself if my shooting percentage is still lower than expected i will withdraw from polite team !
Thanks sam for the encouragement today ! I love you
Thanks Jocelyn.N for your encouragement off court when we have dinner , on MSN ! how can i not love you ! cant wait to see you now ! i love you !
To sum it up , I love netballers !
andand , my new class E36J , same level and block as my Jocelyn.N and dearest becca. LOVE IT !
excited over it.. andand today i saw my long lost bitch kaiying. big hug for her and there goes my day..