Stress Up Dayy ..
I'm super stress up , i'm happy with going to rp . Was quite unhappy at first , when i saw the msg at 6.30am , it was written like Ederlyn Chan Li Ting , you are posted to Republic Polytechnics for integratedd events management . Den my whole mind was like Blur & confused . Firstly , i was afraid nobody would be with me , Secondly , i seriously think that its not the best choice that i wanted .
Told mum , and she insisted that i go for appealing to Nanyang polytechnics . After much decisions , i decided to appeal tomorrow . Hais .. Wish me luck man! I'm stress , i've friends at both side . Sorryyy if i left you all out over at rp .. Sorryy ........

Muscle Aching Dayy..

I'm super exhaustedd after training . Really felt like lying down on the floor right after the suicidesss .. OMG . We had some games in the front , sort of shooting games . My team win 3 in a row . Den next played the lame ball bashing game . After which , do stretches ,do drillss & finallyy court game . After court game stil need do loads of sprints and weird things . Really aching like nobody businesss ..
I'm tireddd ..

Thanks you boy for your love . I really thanks youu ..

It's a tiring dayyy

Woke up , bathed & down to jurong east . visitedd nannyy , den went off to jurong point to meet lily . Ultra hungryy .. Faster grab my superbb late lunchh , and off to work . Late for 10mins . Dint go for break , so eat at the end of the day . Met melissa after work & found out that we done somethign common for the month januaryyy . HAHAHASSS ! HURRAY !!!
Let's hope all this will last .

I'm in a dilemma . I dont know what should i do . Help me please !

Chinese New Yearr :DDDDDDDDDDD

25th , Something big happen. Ask me if you want to know .
26th , Chinese new year eve . Went work in the morning 8am till 4pm. Weisong came down accompanied me home . Shiokkkkk .. Reacheddd home , batheddd & slack a while & off to sgoonn . Had mine very first steamboat of the year over at sgoon . Around 9pm , went over to yishun . Dint eat anything cause was sort of like having gastric flu. feel like vomitting at times . Went home around 1am ..
27th , First day of new year , got up around 1pm . Bathed and went over to the very first place .After which , mum drove me down to mac to pass lily shirt & alice angpow. Went off to sgoon after that . Gamble a while & off to yishunnn ..
28th , Second day . went over to punggol to visit grandmother . Den gamble . Den went home .....

This year new year is the most boring ..
But i collected loads of moneyyyy ...
Miss my friends lar . dint meet up with anybodyyy at all . kns ..Delon gone digging together with vanessa . Dont know which hole are they in ...

Sorry for not updating , been to genting for stupid things .
Anyway , its boring .. So ya , came back to singapore liaos .
Tomorrow meeting cindylim at 1pm den going work at 5pm .. Olayyyy ...
Anywya , i've given up on braveman . Nothing much to upload .

I felt so bad this few days . I've been neglecting all my friends all the time . How idiotic can i be ?
VANESSATAN have definitely been neglected , ALBERTTAN also being neglected ..
CINDYLIM will be meeting her on sat .
Obviously i miss vanessa & albert most now . Shit lar . Still got chye seng notes . I promise to pass it to him & i dint . How idiotic am i . Holy shit .
Anyway , Yest work from 4-11pm . Cousin went to fetch me over at mac , drive me home , bathed changed & off to mike ng house to pass him those books . Left my wallet in the plastic bag . So lengkiat delivered it back to hougang for us .

Collected wallet from cousin den went off to hougang 8 help noor collect things . down to sgoon to pass her , ate dinner & chit chatted with mike & loads more . Seriously i starting to love my life being with friends .
I starting to get tired of waiting for someone , cause i know others will be there . I hope really like what he say , if we have fate we somehow will be together .. I'm tired of it . really tired of it ...

Its a happyy dayy .

Woke up late , immediately called braveman to wake him up .
That idiot still dare ask me whether is meet 1pm or 12.30pm , & blame me for calling him only at 12pm .
Suppose to meet at YCK mrt station at 12.30pm , but i was so damn late den endedd up meeting only at 1.30pm. Joyce was already over at orchard waiting for us as we told her we will meet her 1pm at orchard & cannot be late.
So ya meet up with everybody & walked over to Shaw House . eat over at Shaw house . After which bought tickets for movie at Shaw . Watched 3.30pm. Alice & joyce was trying to sabotage me & braveman . But too bad . It dont works on us . Ended up me & braveman sitting one corner each . LOL.
Smart braveman . One clap for you .....
In the midst of the show , i was damn urgent & needed the toilet badly . But i tolerate till really getting colder , i finally ask alice . Actually she also want go toilet , so we rushed over to toilet . After toilet , wanted to go back to sit , but super dark that we dont know where we sitting & LAugh like nobody businesss at the toilet .. KNS
Red cliff was great show . After the show we walk around everywhere like mad & end up decided to go to chinatown as new year is round the corner .
Ate dinner over at chinatown . We have stingrays , chicken wings , cockles , baby squid , tang yuan & satay . Now you know how pig we are right .
Braveman drinks , its the first time he go out with me & drink . haiz . Super sad lar . i Dont like him drinking ................
luckily he's strong , 2 bottles NO DRUNK . Good boy my dear.
Cab home with alice & braveman . I was the last to alight . Poor me . BBraveman was the first to alight . Reached home msg-ed braveman . He told me something like : 'all he can say is up to fate now ' . what does this means ? i meann if he like me means like me wad , what has it got to do with fate . i Dont hell understand . I will miss him again . cause he's leaving on 24th until 29th. Back to his hometown for new year.....
IMY .......................

Working weekends , Busy weekends .
Sat night was horrible , time goes so slow that nobody knows wad to do . Sat afternoon was greeat , went to nic house . His bro is damn cutie .. I love him so much ..
Cant get to sleep upon reaching home , & slept around 3am.

Sun morning is FUN . There's always clifford there entertaining , thansk clifford . Late for 10mins . Left early after work . Meet lily for lunch . Dint collect EMC . Alice came to meet us right after her work , slacked around a while talking about the MOon & Star thing . Super lame . And back home around 4pm.
Home & out with mama & bro . Bought jumper suit . Bought 2 cotton on shorts. Bought shirts .
Total spend 200++ . Broke . Luckily its not my money .
I still need to get a bag , Clifford present & albert present .
Please drop money down !

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAREST CLIFFORD !

back ! Today whole day out slacking with the same people . Alice & nicholas . Cool , we went over to hougang point to slack for the whole day . Ate kfc & slack there . Chit chatted alot of things . Pretty fun !

Walked back to hougang 8 at around 8pm , ate over at there for dinner , watch tv and chatted again . Back to mac to wait for Noor . So waited till 10.30pm den we talk till 11plus cause noor not going back Jb .. Accompanied them wait for bus & walked home .

Finally saw braveman over at mac . Super happy i think . Its like finally . I seriously miss him like shit. Cant bloody wait for monday . I wan see him , I wan talk to him .
Everybody is asking me to give up on him , but how to . You all teach me lar . Ass !
Is there really another chance ????? I pray hard for it . Please god for it , & i will really cherish it . I know as long as i wait there is still a chance , i believe in myself . I will wait for the chance to come once again . I dont mind how long i need to wait , as long as a chance is there , i will cherish it & i swear ..
Please grant me the chance once again .
Please grant me one last wish please !

Home the whole day rotting , i slept till 4.30pm , in a sleeping mood replied everybody's msges . Chyeseng called and by then i was awake . So ended up meeting him tomorrow .
Alice and melissa dint came up today , they are coming tomorrow .

I myself cant believe that i actually sleep till the noon , woke up actually want meet that CG and go school with him de , but end up he's already at school there , so i lazy go liaos . Just stay home & watch tv . Watch till around 8pm ,went for dinner . After which , having bad gastric pains , everythign i eat feel like vomitting out . Went home had my medicine & watch tv till now .

Can you believe braveman is online too ? Omg , i'm excited .
Am i mad over him ?

Anyway , got to know about the fat wee blog through friends . That shit teacher kind of insult 4e4 you know . He got this fat tummy that nobody can win. And always think that his class got the best results . This seems like he's just not facing the reality . Blaming out class for pulling the school down ? Shit you , only if your class no failure den you have the rights to say 4e4 , if not shout your mouth up & keep your comments to yourself . Dont insult our teachers as well , they did nothing wrong , they are great Form teacher and Co form teacher . Unlike you , doing nothing but insulting other class ! Get this clear , One more insultation , we will get even with you . And we dont use violent , we use knowledge !

I suddenly thought of the question alice ask me last night .
Q: You dont intend to forget braveman & accept other guys ?

then my answer straight was : No , i dont intend to .

Seriously , i think its quite stupid . I dont know the answer no is for the second part of the question or the first part . Sometimes i think forgetting braveman is damn easy lar . Its freaking easy shit . Cause as long as i dont contact him , i will surely forget him de . Saying no to accepting other guys its because i'm afraid of being in love again , i'm afraid it would be another torturing one just like the relationship with braveman , i dont want to be ending up crying again . So i rather not go into relationships .. Although i still like braveman , but i believe if he really cherish me, he wont give up on me , but if he dont cherish me , i dont mind he giving up on me , cause i will also give up on him .

Currently its 3.12am . I'm just done with doing my blogskins & its for the first time .
May edit it some other day again .

Anyway , today appealing was tiring . Slacking was fun . Seeing him was interesting .
Obviously being with friends is fantastic .

All thanks to CindyLim , we finally registered for our poly courses & also i'm done with my blog . May change it some time maybe tomorrow .

Photos will be uploaded . Its long due photo mind you !

Finally got back our results le . Badly done . Poor thing , i got only that miserable 19points . Super shitty . Ahmin got 10 points , obviously she's smart smart smart . i'm too stupid .
However , after that went slack at hougang 8 with alice and nic , and after that cg came . We chit chat , alice went off around 8plus to switch off radio . while me , nic anc cg went off at 9plus . Randomly saw braveman walking pass . HAppy worx ! Erm , definitely i miss looking at his monkey face and fat tummy ! Something stupid happen cause nic left his sim card on the table so we have to walk back . Call-ed braveman ask him go check and keep for us first . Scare being thrown away . We faster walk back and took it from braveman , he still at there lie to us say he never found anything , Super lame shit . Walk home after that and do nothing till now . Sleeping soon , Working in another 5 and a half hour , and obviously crab with ******** at night ! HURRAY !~

Cheer up my friends !

Big head = love !

Its been days since i last blogggg !
Busy with work & training in fact , since wed i've been working , everyday just hope that time could pass as fast as possible so that i wont have the urge to message him . But hell know , as long as work time ends , i will start to think of him & have the urge to msg him . Super useless i guess . Nowadays working dint allowed to have break , I hate being super hungry , cause i dont like to have gastric pains . Whatever ! Thursday work & went for training also . Practically nothing much about my life . Training was fun , i was like being shoot alot of time . And stupid alice trip me twice . Coach Jo was being so kind to us , training the both of us privately . We're super honour ! Today , went for suki sushi , and home , and mac delievery and down to see big head basketball cause he's playing at upper court , so went there to peep about .

Happy to get to see him , especially see him play basketball . Damn interesting . But you know when i saw him , i will start thinking rubbish liaos . For example , why aint i born earlier ? why must i know him ? Stupid ! I really hope he's fine everyday , as long as he contact me everyday , i'm happy !

Monday is reaching in like 2 days time , results is coming out soon .
May god bless me , i dont wish to fail especially english , i really hope for the best . I dont want to regret in anything i do . Especially in my studies ,i dont want disappoint my parent . They gave me everything i want in order to see me succeed in my academic . If i really disappoint them , i totally dont know how to face them !
God bless me !

I CHIP OFF MY FRINGE and i'm farking regretting regretting regretting . !
I regret having this fringe , please grow back as fast as possible ,i miss my old fringe . Will upload pictures of my stupid fringe together with melissa . Anyway , i'm too tired to update much this few days , so shaall not elaborate too much !
Its a bad fringe fringe fringe day !

i'm down in luck reasonly . Stupid shit , dint wanted to go out at all , so ended up met melissa to slack only . Went home and at night went to tpy for dinner with parent . After dinner , i fell right in to the drain , leaving a big and deep cut and hole in my leg . FREAKING stupid. Yesterday i fell at mac leaving a big blueblack on my hand now . Fark the shit . I really getting clumsier . Haish . Super pain , till now the bleeding not yet to stop . Its swollen and painful . Super down in mood . totally down . Sentosa mood tomorrow is totally dispersed . I hate falling down . !

MY BLOG IS DEAD !

I apologise for not blogging the past few days , been so busy that i had no time to blog at all .
Holy shit . Anyway , saturday working at 3pm , met alice at 2.30pm at coffeeshop , had my long time no eat CHAR KWAY TEOW . After eating go mac and start work as soon as we reached , working was so boring , we only work for 5 pathetic hours . Did you all realise its getting shorter? WAHAHAHAS ! After work slacked around with shafie and xueting and aliceng , waited for noor & accompanied her to bus stop & we went home . Was super happy cause i got the postcard from clifford . Thanks clifford ..

Sunday , work again in the morning . I woke up superb early but still i was late . However , today quite a number of crowds . Edward , gardner and xueting dint came for work. Holy shit , and something malu happen . I had a slip and fall . omg . Super malu . Everybody go cctv and watch . Omg. Anyway , After work help to arrange the buns , and went eating with lily , emi , and aliceng . Went home after that , met melissa to slack . But ended up going play basketball with cg & kevin . VERY FUN ! we had loads of match with other guys over there . HAHAS , i'm a pro ( JOKING )

Dint get to see him for a few days le , cause he claim that he's sick . Dint want to disturb him also , but did saw him today after work when on bus home , saw him at his store . Okays , although its far away , but at least i still get to see . That's more than enough le . Dint want to msg him, cause i thinking of giving up. But he msg-ed me himself with some rubbish . WO YI JING DUI TA KUAI YAO SI XIN LE , YIN WEI WO BU ZHI DAO HAI NENG ZAI ZUO SEN ME LAI YONG YOU NI , WO HAI PA SHI QU NI ! you know ? I bet you wont know . HAIISH !

I'm a failure in handling friendships , i know all about it , I dont know how to cherish my friends , i always start to regret after making so many mistakes . I know i tends to hurt ppl with wad i say , but i dont mean it , I'm seriously not good at words , seriously. I'm sorry to those i've hurt , i think i should keep my mouth shut at times . SORRY peeps !
I know i must cherish alice , she's always there for me everytime , but i dont know how to express or tell her , i know all my actions towards her is like i dont know how to cherish her . Maybe i'm bad in expressing myself , but give me time . Sorry for all the attitudes or harsh words . I'm sorry.

31 DECEMBER ..

Its the lasy day of 2008 , alright , everybody have been asking me where i go for my countdown. In fact this year , i dint for countdown and dint get to see any fireworks . Work was the thing that i do on last day of 2008 , the most boring year of all . Congrats to me , i never felt so boring before . I met big head at 3.30pm over for lunch , but due to his tooth pain , we left around 4plus , dint get to see big head for long , but better than nothing lor . He accompanied me to bus stop , and went home after that . I met up with nic and xueting , went up xueting house to watch tv for a while . After which , nic accompany to mac and he went back home . Work for super tiring , crowd in crowd in and forever crowd in , was extended till 11.30pm . Due to crowd in at mccafe , i help out with noor . How good can i be ? I dont understand wad those managers are thinking , OMFG , they cut labour until crowd in they must run until the face turn green , GOOD JOB , KEEP IT UP ! Punch out together with sotong and slack together outside with nic , xueting and dionna came to find us after that , played sprays and chit chatted till 3am and went home

1 JANUARY 2009

Woke up by aunty regina , cause we suppose to meet 10m for sentosa , i actually press off the alarm, i dont know what i'm doing at all . How pig can i be . Ended up meeting at only 11.30am , vinnci was late late late . Super late . Anyway , bought volleyball along , reached sentosa around 1pm , changed and start playing . Rock and Roll . I accompanied vinnci for volleyball first , den went down to play with alice and reg . Make friends with quite a number of people from bendemeer sec and TP . The bendemeer sec gals is only 14 but they look 16 . Holy shit . Tp guy look like ITE student but he scored 12 points only . holy shit . Know the bendemeer gals by playing cpatain balls . Den know the TP guy by volleyball , they approach me and vincci for a game , so we joined them , played all the way . Super fun , and now i'm finally tanned !
I WAN TO BE MORE TANNED .
BEACH VOLLEYBALL PLEASE !
photos for yesterday and today will be uploaded some other days , something wrong with my phone !

Anyway , thanks for everybody wishes .
Special thanks to gardner , he called me and say alot of things , Thanks and all the best in your studies !
Big head have been ignoring me ... ......