I shall put a stop right now.

I shall MIA from blogger for a moment. So in advance wish you a happy NEW year 2010

Lots of things left unsaid
28th is just like 2 days away , or probably few more hours away.
Complicateddd , Why must she ever come in at this point of time.
I love you still....
What if i need you baby , what if i say i loved you.

I got the best of everything in 2009 christmas. Thanks dearest people !

First i got QAD with me the whole day , i got cousins to shop around with , and i got myself 2 sleeveless shirt and i watched alvin & chipmunks 2 with qad.

I'm so blessed with qad around. real blessed. Thanks qad , i hope you enjoyed !

Afterall , CHIPMUNKS is real nice. Catch it real soon. I don't mind watching again. Ask me out yo !

Wonderful christmas although dont seems to be one.

Wonderful day , Some may not know.

thanks qad for the whole day , with you around laughter never failed !

And of course , thanks Eve , the pressie , the surprise , the sending home part. Thanks everything. Thanks for running up all the way to cinema , just afraid that i'm gone , thanks for sending me home despite the expensive ride , i know hq can send you one , but you dont want. Thanks friend ! :) <33333>

*shall see you tomorrow at expo with your retarded face*

*scratch head what to get for you*

I wont initiate to ask you out cause you dont care.

R/S is not a good thing always

Town with hq and eve , nice , they are real nice people. Always keeping me infront afraid me getting lost.

Sweeettttt ....

Escorted me to amk hub , shop around for boxes , but sadly not found. So waited for qad , while walking , eve went over to get 2 bottles of HoneyLemon for me. nice ! My first time drinking and definitely it rocks big time.

Home after which , another fun day tomorrow , ROCK ON !

SICK ! SAD ! FML !

FML !
i'm sick , but he's not here to care.
Thanks eve & hq for being caring friends ! <3
Stupid eve call me by accident which result in me calling back & ended up allowing her to realise my Sexy voice on phone. & by that she know that i'm sick.
Stupid weather cause my stupid cough and flu , Stupid quarreling make me feel so sick.

I don't deny i love you. But you are not making me realise that you love me , YOU ARE NOT !
This is the 6th day since i last since you , im immune to the feeling by now. I realise i should not expect much from you.

I officially say i give up ! :( not looking forward to seeing you.

DON NG , i miss you !

28th , tight schedule = gone.
have you ever remember the time i went all the way down to ecp , FML

Sad & disappointed !

Life have been nice when its spent with jocelyn and dearest kimo.
Ok , so where have i been , on friday i went over to suntec look for eve , and also look for my hoodie. Was a real fun day out with them. LOL.
i seriously enjoyed. Nevertheless , i miss DON so so so much !
ok whatever it is , i can just conclude here that thanks friends for always being there for me. Thanks for keeping my laughter !

Sometimes i really thinking are you the one that i'm really looking for. Are we suitable for each other. I know i miss you that much , but i always wanted to try all my means and way to see you but you dont seem to appreciate. I think alot when i want to prove things to you. But previously when with shawn i dont need to think so much. I'm feeling so stress up. Why nothing i do seems to make you understand , You disappoint me again and again. WHYYYY ???

I just need time alone. Give me more time. Why is it you can give in more to others but not me. Why others get the care from you more than i do. Why others always have better treatment than me. WHYWHYWHY ? :(:(:(
The more i wanted you to be with me , the more i dont get it.
The more i miss , the more we quarrel. The worst things get.
You never understand me even though its so so so going tobe the 2nd month knowing you. You never know what i want , cause you are still the old you , the one i once know. The guy who is still not sensitive over how i feel.

why others boyfriend spend time talking to their love ones on phone even during camp , but mine spend time talking to their friends.

Mentally && Physically Tired :(
HAHAHHAHHAHA !

I'm not lying ! Camp is really tiring. For god sake. For the first day we done everything. Really everything. We had our beep test & guess what , i got level 8 shuttle 8 , ok i'm happy enough with this level and shuttle. At least i pass , after which dint want to rest so ended up over at badminton court challenging SOLEHA. So after that we had floorball match against netballers & lunched. We had goal's setting , followed by badminton again && also friendly with basketballers. Stupid Tan Cl bang me but she grab on to me immediately feeling so guilty. Coach came and we did floorballl among oourselves again , 8pm officially started training. Did lots of attacking strategy again. End of training , bathe and all the way to agora hall. Settle down and mac delivery came.. yummyy.. Slept at 2am.. back aches !

ohya , saw hq today cause they have friendly with rp team. Heard from tan cl that both of them nearly fight. I wanted to watch but ya , dont get a chance to watch at all.
Thanks to the evelyn , thanks for the M&Ms by you...

Second day , madness.. Woke up at 8am , pack stuffs and back to OSG. Did warm up and started our 5km run. ok , was cool. I like it alot cause it really train up. After 5km breakfast and watch video of us with RV. After video , start shooting the 1000 shots we owe Faz. Did 500 for the day as we are having 2 friendlies. One with seniors and one with SMU. Both friendlies was fine , needed much more communication with dearest qad. So ya , shall train extra hard with her. However the situtation of the both friendlies is super and ultra tense up. Anyway , after everything , we had the christmas celebration super funny , loads of things happen. we had pizzas and kfcs , super yummy ! cut cake && exchange gifts. & ya end the day after that , bath , set up and slept at netball court.

Thanks STJK for the cushion to comfort my back ! Thanks loads

Third day , woke up shivering super cold all thanks to qad. HAHAHHAHA ! leg achings and arms aching as well. Shoot another 300 shots in the morning , with both hand aching. Set up for the carnival and realised that nowadays small kids are real naughty and irritating........... argh ! !@$#$#&^$&... SHOOT another 100 after the carnival ,bathe and break camp. *finally*

Home ! fuck you for getting close to him.
I miss don ng

expectations :)

in the middle of the night:)you all must be wondering why am i still not asleep.
Reason being is simple. Suddenly thought of my expectations of my boyfriend.
1-must be able to accompany me when i'm bored
2-sleep only when i'm asleep. 3-be by my side when i'm sad. 4- make me feel secure. 5- must be able to cheer me up. 6- must pamper me. 7- hahaha , get whatever i want. Joking:-)
Tada , that's all , i shall go sleep and yeah.

A day spend with him <3

• Point , den he came , up to his house.
  
• Study for like 10mins , and play time
• PLay icy tower.
  
• he fierce me again :( ok , thats his character.
  
• After which dinner with him and cheryl. *cheryl is damn cute can ?
• Home , do cards again

D , i love you lar ! cant wait for everything to happen !

Today class gift exchange. Real fun , i came sch just for that. So ya we had loads of fun and laughter. It seems like it's going to be the last day of school. But whatever it is , i must really thanks beenu for the silkygirl sports perfume and the lollipop towel. I love it. I'm so gonna use it.
Do cards for the whole class. Hope they like it.
Thanks shawn tee for the one whole box of cookies. I love it.
I'm a real fortunate girl. Thanks for everything people. What more can i say beside i love you all !

Yesterday had training in school. Ok , was real bored , this is all due to coach's strategy kept on repeating for like an hour. && most of us were rotting over there. Alright , and finally 830pm we started playing our court game. Cool , played with jocelyn , she being the GA and me being the GS. ok , after which saw D over there , was quite shock. Not expected though. Switch to GA after that. Was really tiring , super tiring. I realise stamina gone for GA , long time since i last play GA le. Must train up le.

Today never go school due to fever. Injections , and ya , heard from meiyu that we are having gift exchange session on monday. D came up my house , accompanied me a while and he went off. Met melissa and slack with her for around 2 hours plus , talked to her alot of things and we suggested to have a game with the juniors of sgs. Sorry roy for not accompanying you tonight. Sorry D , for being so grumpy.

Talking about gifts exchange, i just realised that , i don't have time for buying gifts. Only left with sat , i must really get all the gifts by then. I need to get the class exchange gifts one , and also need to get netballers gifts. Having netball intensive camp on 15-17 , 16 will be having exchange gifts session. LOOKING FORWARD ah !

Christmas wishlist : IPOD !
: kimo's muffins
: shawn's cookies
: camera
: && anything that i can bring around. !
:BACKPACK for school.

Been so busy with life that i'm so so so exhausted and lazy to do any other things.
Including blogging !
SCSM '09 was quite tiring , seriously i make it cause i dint sleep for around 20 hours. && after which slet for 12 hours.
School again. Game with RiverValley. I think i really played well , But ya like i say i'm so exxhausted over so many things that makes me not motivated for netball.

nothing have been nice towards me. Nothing positive. Totally crazy..
life's sucha bitch !

Will you ever hold me when i fall ? Be there when i need ?

This is Joei Tan , they are people who work for compaq opposite us during the SITEX show. Nice and fun friends there.
This is yingying tan. She real cute de. HAHAHAHAH , also another friend working opposite us.
This is wingyan , she's damn pretty right ? damn funny. always very very loud.
And here they are ! i love you all ! thanks for the 4 fun day there.
This is Lenovo plus compaq plus microsoft , from left to right : wingyan , evelyn ,ederlyn , yingying , joei and jocelyn.
NICKY NICKY.. hahahaha , he accompanied me down to east coast on the sat night
qad , also followed me down and came over to stay over at my house.
thanks sister for accompanying and being there alwyas. <333
All the fun ended on sunday , let's meet up soon dear friends !
hello sister , since when are you so tall..
qad , i love you , without you i confirm bored till die de.
this is taken when yingying is busy dealing with her customers.
qad , you are the best , without you i will die at SITEX. we slack together , laugh together and also have fun and at the same time earn money together.

So from last thursday till sunday have been working at Sitex. So ya , miss school on thursday which is maths again. I promise not to miss anymore cause i'm really always lost in maths lesson. First day of work on thursday was really tiring , not use to the standing part , me and jocelyn keep on going to slack and sit down. Zelin came down at night with bubble tea and dinner. thanks Zelin. <3> 2nd day of work , know 2 new guy , bryan and aaron. They were really funny , me and jocelyn suddenly miss the fun from them today. HAHAHHAHA. Weejie and dearest don came down to surprise us. really nice of them , with mac and bubble tea. Oh thats so cool. I like it. Damn it , i just love surprises. HAHAHAH.. So they waited for us to go for break and we went for break and had our lunch together with them. Slack a while and back to work. I remember once i step back to work i miss dearest don le. HAIS ): but ya time pass super fast. But later part in the night quarreled with Dearest Don , cause he disappoint me. I dont like. 3rd day at work. Was early for work. Saw the bryan and aaron again. Also those people opposite us. Talk and talk and talk and have loads of fun. Lunched with bryan and aaron over at east point mall. HAHAHA. super far right. Faster eat and rushed back to expo by cab. HAHAHA. Nic came down to find us later part in the night and we went for cup noodles. He bought bubble tea for us , so nice of him right ? after which took some pictures and went down to east coast to surprise D , but he look shock but ya i dint even get to talk to him more than 10 sentences. I swear i dint. bought him mac when i know he's hungry, walked all the way over to the place he's at but was too late , he was eating the chicken rice sponsored by them le. Was super sad. After which chit chat with jocelyn and nic den talk talk talk alot of funny things happen. then we decided not to wait for D le , cause he's still having some talk with the sirs and i needed to send nic home and jocelyn was tired. So ya , took cab and send nic home. After which jocelyn came my house to stay , I was realy at the urge of crying cause i really miss D lar. I like it when jocelyn come my house to stay. I like it totally lar ! <3334th day , woke up for work late , we purposely late de but ended up early anyway. early in the morning chailuan call me and say , eh huiqin working at expo also leh. at the addidas sales. Super high in the morning. Rush down and went up the addidas sales to find huiqin. she's so damn cute. Even my lunch break also went over to find her and she gave jocelyn staff discount for the windbreaker. NICE ! Then during her dinner break , she actually came over my booth to surprise me with subway cookies. How nice can she be. I was really shock && dint know what happen. omg <3>

Monday blues : marketing module and its really sucky. Lucky team members was really cool cause i was really slacking away , did i tell you all the ppt i did not do any of the slides. HAHAHHA. && i quarreled with D. Anyway , after which when running alone. while jocelyn went for talk. So ya , went training with 7 other people only. Coach came and teach the fish eye thing lar. I was really blur at the moment. And jocelyn wasn't there for training so was quite bored. So after that i thought i'm so going to be alone but i wasn't. Huiqin called me and asked me to wait for her at sports complex. So she came with her car and she fetch me back. Thanks huiqin , not only that , she came to the nearest petrol kiosk to pump petrol and at the same time she bought ferrero rocher for me. Thanks huiqin. but i feed her with one as well. <33333 her manymany..,.

Tuesday : accounting. Heavy module. I dint went for 1st break cause need do worksheet. Den 2nd break classmates ask me go with them so i went down with them. Bought wedges only. So my whole day meal is wedges and shaker fries. After which maggie mee. HAHAHHA. Mum fall sick already && D never come school today. Cool lar , today he never come tomorrow i not going. I miss hiim so badly.qad now i know how you feel ya. I miss him lar ! argh !

D , i miss you.

Qad , just wanna say i really miss you so much lar siol. Cause i think both of us spend so much time with the 2 guys le. Time to have time on our own. Although seriously you also super miss joel. HAHAHAH ! but ya , things are still going well for both of us though. Hopefully this friendship stay strong ! lastly , i just want to say i love you lar qad.

hello weejie. He's a joker.

The following are all pictures on our street netball game during last sunday. WE got the champs after fighting so so so hard.

Hello team gardenia !

Hello ranjini , our laughing partner.

qad , my lover .

Elaine ng , the short girl really damn cute...

This is the picture for my coach and our team winning and achieving champs. they are estrella , and we are gardenia/

Lastly , this is for D , last night i realise we really did quarrel till very harsh and rude and bad. But seriously i'm sorry deep down my heart. && i seriously hope things will only geting better. i dont want see you so sad over it le. Seriously i love you and i miss you. as much as you do.

wanted to have a long post but still things happen for a reason and i'm not in a mood

Street netball carnival in the west , champions. Thanks ran , elaine and jocelyn for playing so well. you girls did your best and therefore we are able to clinch champions.

qad , imy so so so much. i miss the times we use to spend together aft training , before training. The times you laugh so hard with me , played so hard with me. I know things changes for a reason. Everybody get busy and gets on with their own life. But ya , i not blaming anybody but just waant say i really do miss you even though we are near to each other. I realise the miss is not the part whereby not i miss you on how you look.
LASTLY , qad , i reallly miss and love you

D , i love you.. but i know we quarrel again. i'm sorry ): i know its not goign to get better. i'm just thinking way too much.

pictures and longer updates soon. maybe tomorrow or by this week i promise

I want to blog , but i'm so lazy to blog.
I shall cut short..

I cant remember what happen. But i know on wednesday training , Which is D birthday he actually stay back and waited for me to end training. How sweet can he be ? haaha , forever waiting for me one. Love you ! The next day he send me down to kallang after school. Once again , he's by myside. And today he go late to school cause i woke up late and he accompanied me down to school. Thanks D , thanks for everything that you did. I appreciate it , now i'm so not use without you. But still monday i shall see you. <3333

Today in school , not reaalllyy good , quite pisseddd. qad , sorry that you got a shock. I got a shock tooo. But ya , at least things is fine now.

qad , i love you lar. how to say how much i love you leh. Aiya , complicated stuffs again. Tomorrow staying over qad house and netball carnival over at bukit batok , wish me luck.

Will you stay by my side forever ?

Today webcaming session with D in school and at home. HAHAHHA. ignore the conversation. 1ST ONE IS he trying to say that my eyes is small. Whatever. Kept on asking where is my eyes. Den the second one , he action about his apple. damn apple. HAIIYOOOO.. ):):):):

Few more hours will be D birthday le. This is the present i make for him. AHHAHAHA. was suppose to surprise him but i failed cause i could not find his house right D ? i dont know he really happy anot lehh. But hopefully he's. D ah , wanted to go surprise you today also. But i dont know how leh. Wanted to make breakfast for you tomorrow but you meeting jaime. So i dont think i need to make any. But ya , happybirthday and all the best in everything.

• The dating day with QAD.
  we had a one whole day of fun. HAHAHHAHA , we went hortpark on 15 november andand after which night safari for dinner. Watch performance over at night safari also. Super fun. HAHHAHA. QAD , i just wanna tell you i had so much fun with you. Really alot alot alot of fun. ANDAND , finally i know QAD for the 3rd months le. I love her like nothing ahhh
  
  
  
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Seriously theres a number of pics to upload.
But before that i just wanna say i'm just too lazy to upload. So another time ok readers ?

• Life has been great when its filled with lovelyn people.
• Thanks D for alot alot of things , thanks for all the dumb surprises and also thanks for the accompanion.
• Thanks hq for the lovely ride home. Thanks , I appreciated it.
• Thanks SOMEONE for the lvoely hug. I appreciated it.
• Thanks QAD for always being there.

I really got loads more to thanks but for the time being this few

of course not to forget to thanks my lovely pingpongzcxzc for always being there && i miss yuan lai already.

pictures soon ok? i had a fun day with you..

I need to really work work work.
Zelin help me planned le , he asked whether can start work at 1 dec. Alrights , i think should be can. Hopefully i can get off days on my 3Uts paper. Hopefully ahh.
I will be skipping school i think. Goodbye school..
Anyway , tomorrow having training again. Any kind soul come find me please. see ya ! :)

Updating about yesterday. This is QAD and me after the whole events. See that silly girl face. Cute right ? thats why i love her so much. QAD , love you lar. she brought me so much laughter and fun on that day. Ohmy.. girl , YANABARA.......Thanks for working so well with D..

This is D , my first 2 pictures with him though. Thanks him for the big and really shocking surprise lehh. *loves&hugs* I totally dint expect that surprise from him. Before that he still act with me say tomorrow see how. If not monday den see me. All sorts of things. Very surprise... D , you did surprise me lar.

• ZNC 3 was a successful events
• Woke up super early despite sleeping late the day before. Had Mj at coach house. Played till 2am , losing 2 bucks.
• Cabbed down. Set up everything. && started at 930am.
• At around 10.30am , surprise came. *happy*
• Everything ended at 4pm i think.
• Went over to Tampines Mall , shopped around. && eat.
• Den home with D and QAD..
• Thanks for being sucha nice people. I will upload more photos when i get the carnival photos. *loves*

I'm really fortunate to have QAD & D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIQIN :):) love:)

• School from 8.30am till 4pm , damn faci , ended so late can ?
  
• Thanks classmates for being so loving and sweet.


• Thanks QAD for bubble tea !
  
• slacked around with kimo && met up with the rest after which.


• Soccer pol-ite with kimo , becca , ran , aidah , && QAD. rp lost to ite in the last few mins. 1-0


• QAD went off with JT after that , and i was suppose to go with kimo they all till D called.


• So ya sorry kimo and peeps not going inter with you all. Still love you all so much lar though !


• Thanks D for the ride. Much appreciated , lots of loves as well.


• Home around 9pm . thats fast. Waited for QAD & 12am to wish huiqin.

So ya , QAD , last long ya ! i still love you more than he do horx. HAHAHAH , i know you love me more too.. Dont need worry about leaving me alone lar.

JT , you better dont bully QAD horx. You bully her i sure go bully you de horx. I will kill you hor. If QAD sad cause of you i will go your class kill you ah ! HAHAHHAHAAHHAA...

JOCELYN NG , I STILL LOVE YOU ALOT ALOT DE OK ?

REMEMBER , FRIENDSHIP IS NOT ABOUT WHO YOU KNOW LONGEST , IS ABOUT WHO IS BY YOUR SIDE WHEN YOU ARE DOWN.

i'm so excited cause maybe QAD coming over to stay.. :)

what a wonderful day

• saw QAD for the whole day , && i'm happy
• Thanks QAD for the waffle during ut.
• Thanks D for the lollipop yesterday
• Thanks QAD for all the fun and laughter and taking my phone , if not by now gone le.
• && thanks huiqin for fetching me today after game. Thanks HQ thanks HQ.. Loves (L)
• Lastly , pingpongxcxzcxzc , i miss you ! && obviously i love you too horx !

What siol ? i dont like it lar , i jealous cannot meh....

QAD , omg , we gonna know each other for 3 months in total when nov 16 come....

hello readers , back to blog.

• Yest surprise QAD was successful.
  
• Exhausted from school , rp netball training resume
• Game tomorrow with dont know who , QAD umpiring. :(
  
• Finger still not getting better.
  
• Thanks D for waiting yest for like 1 hour plus.
• Thanks D for the lame jokes ?
• thanks everybody for everything... && i love all of you..
  
• thanks Tan cl for being caring.
  
• Lastly ,YUANLAI , i miss you liaos. come back visit us........

netball sucks big time :(

Saturday :

• worked till 2am , took pictures ( will upload photos soon) , play hard , send order to people. *fun*
• super lethargic
• mummy & daddy quarrel
• Muscle pull in the middle of the night. *OUCH!*
• Thanks D for the accompanying
• Lastly , i love QAD , working with her is fun. QAD , love you lar.

Sunday :

• Lunched with mummy
• Down to chinatown to find aunt.
• Dinner with nicky at hougang mall , slack a while and he came my house. *happy* I was like learning how to use iphone. Quite dumb though :)
• Bon voyage to uncle ( taiwan ) and another to aust... *takecares* buy presents for me please..
• Once again , thanks D again.

Monday :

• Woke up early 6am , breakfast with starmy & QAD
• Almost late , so we cab to school.
• Training later on at tp.
• Study for UT today. *goodluck eder*

D , is my new friend. He have been super caring , super loving & last of all he's a Mr. nice guy. && must really thanks him for accompanying for the past few days. Just simply appreciate his kindness. Thanks D .. Thanks Loads. Much appreciated

&& QAD , love you too ok ?

I DROP TEARS AFTER SO LONG...
thanks E36J , thanks kaiying , thanks chailuan , thanks sam , thanks don. thanks everybody.
I wont cry le wont le.
No mood for anything even eating. good job eder..

I spend loads of time to do this in class for my dearest QAD. QAD remember i love you leh. :):):):):):) more things coming up for QAD.



Yesterday my first partial day for sem 2. Had loads of fun during my first partial. Starmy && QAD were there with me when we partial for our monday lesson. Catch My Sister Keepers With both of them. Super nice show. Cried like hell. but story line was awesome. I like it. Watching it again soon. :):):) QAD & starmy thanks for the wonderful day.



Yuanlai's birthday. We rushed to do yuanlai's present on last sat && we rushed down to celebrate with her. She was touched right ? yeahh :):):) HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY YUANLAI.. I love you....




CHINGCHING , playing pool.

Today wonderful day. Although was quite sad at first when QAD told me she going to meet joel. Cause i dont know where to go. thought i will be at home doing nothing le. Luckily dearest rachel ching ask me out , yeahh. So went out with aga and chingching. Went to yishun meet vivian. && went over safra for pool. I was there entertainment and there supporter during the pool game. Dint want to play , sorry ching. After which back to northpoint for our dinner. Yummy , & finally back home. They really bring me loads of laughter lar. I laugh like crazy ! yeahhhh.. I love E36J..:):):)

thanks TAN CHAILUAN for the charger for the whole day cause i forget to charge> :) thanks lar ..