UT3 is starting tomorrow.
I'm suppose to study now but somehow her mood and mind is not into studying.
Tomorrow also my birthday but no plans. Everybody had been asking me how i'm going to celebrate , but i just answered them no plans at all.
Quite disappointing though. :(

Today one whole day moody. Quarreled with faci. Ok , thats not a big deal anyway.

Next bigger deal is Quarrel with Shawn. Hais :(.
I so wanted to prove him wrong. I so wanted to prove that i really like him.
But somehow i always make him angry.
Shawn , i miss you i miss you
Shawn , i love you i love you
Shawn , i'm sorry i'm sorry
Shawn , i regret i regret.
I should blame myself for not cherishing you.
I got no rights to be angry with you, but somehow i hope you don't angry with me.
I think since the first time i know you i've not been cherishing you le.
first time i know you is duing sports camp , during the night walk. You lead our team and bullied us, At night ate mac together and we talk alot , but get bullied by you again. Next is last day of camp we go for movie , some lame shows. Forget the name. And we are like randomly chosing the tickets with eyes close. Ended up sittting beside you. You talk to me saying i keep using my phone during the show, ask me whether am i cold. Den i say NO not cold , den took mrt with you to amk. Den get together with you on july or june i think ? if we were to be together we will be 2 months now. Still remember one time after training , you came to fetch me cause you know i scare being alone. I super happy and happy and happy. Den next is you came town to find me after my class gathering , den we went chomp chomp eat with my friend and you make friend with them. I also very happy cause you send me home again. You gave me a big hug cause you say you miss me like hell. I super super happy. Den next nothing happy le, we kept on quarreling , now i regretted quarreling with you. Cause i realised i really like you after we broke off. I quite happy when on national day you ask me for patch. But i actually make you angry again , And today we quarreled again, i dont know why cant i talk to you properly , why must we always quarrel. I really hope you get to see all this. I'm really want you to know . I'm sorry !

Birthday dont seems to be birthday .
2009 dont seems to be a good year.