Thanks to Rp netballers yo !

Ohya i got loads of long due photos , I will upload once i get it from JocelynNg , she took all the pics but never send me. No worries i make sure she send me on sat....

Will upload by this week ya..

have alot of photos with jocelyn ng lar. Life have been hectic , and of course thanks kimo , LOVE & jocelyn for always being there leh.

Today training totally cock up for me lar. I think i totally stress up.

&& guess what i totally have to thanks KEKE ! my super vice captain.

She funny before training when we doing warm up.

then when serious came she consoled me. Thanks ya!

The 5 men defence for a totally fuck up thing for me. Cause i got slow reaction && my legs dont move. I really get scolded until scare cause i know i cant do it.

Changed me out which i knew it. Cool myself down , listen to what keke told me. She say watch && see. I sat down think hard what i can do. Think how i can improve. && the second time i get on court i think i manage to intercept 2 balls. Praised by tony. *happyhappy*

thanks jocelyn for shouting so loud "nice one EDER * !i heard it ah!

Thank tony for pushing me && finally i manage to intercept some balls. Thanks KEKE for the encouragement ya ! THANKS LAR !

i think tomorrow gonna rocks like totally ya ! shall tell you all why some other days !

&& i realise 26th sep is so so so near liaos ! i quite looked forward but before i go there the next 2 weeks of training or rather the leftover dates of training , i must really buck up ah ! COME ON EDER ! I think people need to work hard but i need work xtra hard in order to keep my position there. PLEASE!

I regretted being in a relationship with him, cause if i did not , we may be real good friends now , not like now , we dont talk that much , we dont have a topic to talk. Worst is , he dont even talk to me. I REGRETTED :(.
I super want to leave sports club le , not cause of him lar. I think i totally not that socialable to make new friends though. && commitment is high.
I want a transfer of school if i really got the chance. I dont think i can be able to continue to survive in RP , && i want to study overseas. DONT WANNA STAY singapore anymore.

BUT STILL IN SINGAPORE I HAVE MY DEAREST SUPERB , KIMO & LOVE BEING THERE.
so not that bad though.

Today pesta sukan , suppose to reach early to watch superb game , but i'm sorry cause i overslept. I LOVE YOU though !
LOL :)
Zenith Alpha had a good fight against Zenith Ace. HAHHA , no joke ah.
&& congrats to SUPERB && ZENITH ACE FOR GETTING CHAMPS.
Ohya , && also pictures will be up soon. when coach Jo && superb send me.
hmmmmm Coach Jo && brenda praise Superb having nice spilts && good shots. They say superb is a real good player. They even took pics and video of 19 combined. SEE !

After pesta we had Team Dinner && ate at Tony Roma's. Me && alice shared ribs && chicken breast , wahseh , yummy. Super full now !but i miss bubble tea. Shall have it tomorrow ,i dont care.

superb really play damn well today leh. She really gets up a level in my heart. Cause i really admire her lar. Her spilts really superb you all know. OHMYGOD. But still take care of your knee , see her keep doing those spilts i also heart pain siol , cause like super pain can ? ohdear !
&& i really happy to know her you all know. Cause she's someone who can share things with, who will always be there for && also i love going her house stay lar. FUNFUNFUN..
SORRY SUPERB TODAY NEVER GO OVER YOUR HOUSE. next week ok ? we stay so near want meet sure can de. MISSYA , LOVEYA !

tomorrow 7.30am for carnival in school again.
TIRED ! JOCELYNNG , meet tomorrow ok?

One word to describe everything , EXHAUSTED.

I'm a totally tired && aching && whatsoever person now. Not enough sleep at all.
Me , love && superb actually late for today's carnival. But wasn't that late as well.
LOVE did registration while me && superb went for umpiring. So at first me && superb keep pairing up but after which meimei give a schedule && me & jocelyn did not have a chance to pair up again.
The carnival also like quite alot of school. I think can say it's a success. But it's super tiring lar. Like we umpire must run here run there , && we stand till our late pain. Den finally break && rotation. Now i'm aching like mad && dont feel good at all.
Tomorrow still having pesta leh. Ohya , && congrats to bowen for getting in second round yo !

had a chat with sgs-ians && coach Jo. Still deciding about the umpiring course. Should i go ?aiya , idont know siol.
Dont feel like wasting coach money at all leh.

I think i have not enough time to spend for myself , i need to do my sprints regularly because i've a pair of slow and heavy legs. I gonna buck up.
Shawn's present yet to be done. Got the towel but yet to print it up. Shit man ! life sucks.
Thursday is his birthday le , can time just stop now.
Tomorrow waking up at 8am , supporting jocelyn's game && maybe go watch shawn's game for like 2 quart && leave there.

I'm going to sleep nownownow ! goodnight peeps . I hate people msging me in the middle of the night.

Currently : Superb house :):)

HAPPY HAPPY , i swear i'm coming to stay whenever i got the time to stay here.
Her house is damn cool lar. Although we spend like doing nothing here but at least the accompanion of LOVE && SUPERB is great. Totally keep my mind out of thinking.

Ohya , today goodie bag packing really fuck up. TIRED :( .
Tomorrow will be umpiring , last min decison. So shall do my best , hopefully won't get curse. I scare

Today game with SRC was fine , i quite happy that I finally improved. Thanks superb for the encouragement && also the advise from her.
Confidence && always keep my mind off everything && focus on the game.
I did it , i think i played quite well though. Thanks tony for putting me a level up .
Eder please dont drop down from there.....

Dinner with Republic netballers. So much laughter. Now i know nothing is much more important than netball + Republic netballers. Whereas without them maybe my laughter will be lesser..

Relationship = NOTHING
Team Republic = Everything
SUPERB && LOVE = PEOPLE WHO ARE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME :):):)
WITH ALL OF THE ABOVE = wonderful life.

Pictures will be up when Superb upload it. && i totally having loads of nonsense with Superb && of course not to forget my DEAREST love !
Need be in school by 7am. Ohdear. should sleep soon. But currently LOVE talking to her bern && Superb doing her love letters && EDER updating blog.

SENTOSA !

Woke up damn early. FEVER not yet okok yet.

I just go for the sentosa cuase i dont want miss out the fun.

Due to me taking my own sweet time , i was late as usual.

We tanned from like 12pm ? i think . PLayed netball , 'MONKEY' and volleyball. Loads of stuffs lar.

I sososo happy... :):):):)

cause long time since we last went to sentosa. At first i quite emo leh , cause i realise he don't even want to talk to me now. But now i'm happy. He did talk to me. Thanks ah.

left at around 4plus. quite lame though. I was super burnt ! Mummy super angry. I promise her not to go under the sun cause of fever and also she say later got skin cancer.

But i really prevented myself from going under for alot of time. But end up i'm super burnt

Went to bathe && pictures time , wanted to took with YY and shawn but too bad. Next time bah.

hais :):):). Went EAT to eat our late lunch. Super disgusting. Down to queensway. Elaine bought her FBT && i went to ikea.

Walked over to queenstown to take train && down to tp for training. I must tell you all i really have bad time management. Reached tp at around 8.30pm, sad leh.

I went there straight do court game. played 4 quarter of GA. super tiring.

1st && 2nd quarter i totally play badly. I sucks

Coach Jo say , eder you must not force your way in the semi D , do some change in direction. You must be strong. Not cause connie bang you den you keep moving. Hold her.

Hais :):) coach JO is not wrong , i'm wrong , i too weak for netball le seriously. Always people bang me den i start to be scare. WTH am i doing.

Eric say : Eder you must be confidence of your shots , dont hestitate to shoot. Once you hesitate you lose out. If the shooting position is within your shooting range den you shall shoot , stop looking for other options. I know your shots can make it.

I super super make coach Jo and Coach eric down. I'm sorry. Last but not least i make myself feel so sad. Nevertheless , why am i sad so not concentrating ? so not focusing ? Alot of things is occupying my mind. Talked to kimo && superb about it & superb say mind over body. she say i should put everything aside during training . I shall listen. I dont want it to affect my performance on court.

I can swear to you guys , this few days netball training is the first time i never laugh or smile on court. I'm losing myself , my mind is super occupied && thinking about other things rather than netball training. Hopefully tomorrow i'm able to perform

Thanks Coach Jo for sponsoring me & alice to umpiring course. She gave us as birthdya pressie , of course we have things in return. :):)

Tomorrow staying at Superb house. YIPPPEEE , happyhappy...

SHAWN TEE , GOOD FRIENDY okok ???

DEAREST LONG LOST FRIEND , although she stay the block beside me.


See how noob i'm. I look like nerd. Beside me is melissa kanaiya. she is love.

TERRIBLE TERRIBLE. :(:(:(:(:(

I'm sure people will ask why.

I will tell you..

Remember me saying fever yesterday. My fever goes up && down.

Mummy and Daddy gets worry , so went over to CGH at 6am before bro went for the camp.

So i had this stupid vaccination injection , the doctor say is for preventing virus and immune system stronger.

So after the injection , i still had another for the fever. I cry like mad. I have this phobia of seeing needles :(:(:(.

Had a hard time totally. Call up elaine to acc. her. Den i complained it to her.

Training was resume && i rushed all the way. Late for training. Saw HAHA on bus and she disturb me cause i'm late.

rushed over to court && warm up den do drills with everybody.

Fun time with netballers. Especiall my SAM 'LEE' which i thought was. But was suppose to be SAM 'GOH'.

Damn funny , but i did very badly today. Totally demoralised. Keep getting scolded. The worst was TONY say " you play GA in your club & you are playing like this here" i quite sad. I dont know what was the things that keeping my mind occupied. I totally cant concentrate on court. Losing confidence again.

EDEREDER , confidence ! CONcentrate.

Tony say we are confirm to go to malaysia trip on 26sep to 30th sep. 3 games. YEAHH !

Going overseas with love & superb le. LOVELY.......... && i suddenly felt so scary at training cause TONY touches my butt for the second time. I really keeping a distance from him now....

Dinner with bern , love & superb. Went home by train with superb. took to amk.

Saw melissa on bus. Long lost friend. LOVE her totally.

Shall meet up with her again soon..

GREAT day. TOMORROW 9am must wake up , some kind soul please wake me up.

FEVER please go down lar ! i want to go sentosa tomorrow de. ARGH !

SENTOSA and after which training....

ELAINE , my love. She is my love , we had so much nonsense together. So much fun together. We play all sorts of things together. Hang out together. Getting closer as days goes by. Although we quarreled at times but we still are as good as ever. Thanks for being there when i'm down , when i'm injured. LOVES ! :):):):):):):)......


JESIE KAUR. She damn funny can ? I super miss her. I think it's long since i last saw her cause of her having the stupid driving thing. Without her like no fun , nobody to disturb. JESIE FASTER come back lar.......




THIS IS ME when i'm super happy and high.

First round of pesta sukan at kallang netball centre. I think this is when our break start. I played like 4 games before that. Super tiring due to the blazing sun. But without failed , my dearest netballers ( the usual gang ) manage to keep me happy and full of laughter whole day.
I totally manage to have this smile on my face is cause of Rp netballers. They are great people i tell you. They will never ever make me sad , never ever make me cry , never ever disappoint me. thanks babes !


The lovely cliques who are always there for me. Who stand by me when i'm down. Went to support all the games i have. Give me support to let me have more confidence.


And of course this is my Superb Jocelyn , the one who i admire most in her netball skills. I'm totally proud of her. She have good skills , great character & of course a friend that you should have. She always there to encourage me when i have no confidence. Teaches me what i should do when i don't know how to. Thanks superb. I love ya.


KIMO ONG , my dearest senior leh. She rocks lar. Forever there for me. Although she love bullying me but i know she's a caring person towards everybody. With her confirm will smile the whole day. With her confirm willl have things to talk. But at times she's really fierce lar. She talk to me when she know i super down cause of Shawn. I really glad that she's always there.



Last night , nearly cry my heart out. But lucky i did not. Quarreled with shawn again.
Alrighty , its my fault , i deserve it. I realised my mistakes too late le. I see him treat me so good i really damn touched can ?Like for example during the chalet , he cover jacket for me. He asked whether i'm cold. I super happy. Thanks ah. How can i say i don't love you , if i say i'm really lying. But i lie is my fault , nobody to blame. I shall face the consequences. Really great knowing you. Mummy console me last night , elaine console me last night ,Alice console me as well , lily also.
I thanks you all totally.

Mummy agreed with me having tattoo , thanks mummy ! She see me so sad she quite sad as well , she see me cant get to sleep she quite down. She see me keep nose bleed she super worried. She promised end of year , taiwan and japan trip. Thanks mummy , i have the best mummy ever. She talk to me about shawn. I know i should stay strong cause i've a lovely family there with me.

Training tomorrow canccell. Ask me out man...
Thurs - sentosa morning , 7.30pm training at Tp , no excuse to skip it.
fri - Game at Sport school.
Sat - School carnival
Sun- Watched superb and shawn's game , && have my second round pesta ,den dinner with zenithians.

Lastly , i will always remember you. :)

LOVELOVE - Last long with bern ok ?I love ya , and thanks for always being there.

Dearest , hopefully its gonna last. ILY lar.

Farewell session for my 2 dearest girl . YEELING and ANGE. Mos burger. I mess up.
Saw pri friend which is aidah friend as well.
Training was sucky. Sprints sprints sprints. and endurance.
Endured the whole training with just 12 persons.
I love netballers.

After which , dinner with netball girls . Train down to heeren.
Then to amk. And met up with braveman for a drink and have a heart to heart talk.
Home after which , was quite scare on bus cause got this uncle sat super near to me when i move to other seats he followed.
Wanted to ask shawn to accompany me but apparently he seems relunctant. I'm sorry to disturb you at times.
Saw the SC joyce i think..

Thurs i'm going for the sentosa i think.
Shawn's birthdya i wont miss it
Thanks AUNTY HUIMIN for the zoo job. hope can get in.

Pressie for shawn should start preparing soon, cheesecake must be a success.

Sunday game please be at 2pm , i want to watch shawn's game at 11am. PLEASE.
I will surely go and watch cause i really miss him.
I also hope sunday he will be there for my game. :(:(:(